I'm starting with the...

Change needs to be intrinsic.

I've been trying to change my work habits and using external factors to motivate myself. Sorry brain, it's not working. :(

On the other hand, I actually do significant work in the classroom for most of my subjects. My attitude at home is what needs a paradigm shift.

So much stuff to do and so little tiiiime. 

I've just gotta stay afloat for the next two weeks then it should all be smooth...

Until I realise that i'll have to work pretty hard in the holidays. Waahh

Also, the whole prefect election stuff has been quite annoying. A few people have gotten angry at me for having this attitude because "not everyone is default like [me]". It means a lot that people think that of me but I feel very ordinary and plain on the inside. Cue nagging insecurities. Speaking of which, insecurity breeds competitiveness like a yeast infection. But hey, that's just human and its something we'll all go through eventually. Nevertheless, I'll be glad when it all finishes tomorrow.

This has also started me thinking on what previous years were like when they were our age. Then I realised the real importance of role models to younger generations.

In a similar vein, I started thinking about who my role models were - aside from obvious ones like my parents of course.

• Mr Woo - that man is amazing to say the least. If you know him, I'm sure you'd think the same. Becoming half the man he is would make me happy.
• Daniel - biggest head on the planet but my brother no less. He's always there for me and always knows what to do - my moral compass if you will. He's always knows what needs to be done and won't give up until its done. I wish I could do that. He's also a little kid at heart - after dinner today, we spent a good 15 minutes mock-fighting - slow mo kicks and all.
• Jess - always level headed and diligent. Some people get really good marks but have very little development in other areas. She just works tirelessly on everything and I don't know how she does it. I'd say she's single handedly keeping SRC together, no less. If anyone deserves to become a prefect/exec, its her - not sure how she'd handle the workload though :S Also, she's a retard.

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Back to work, youngling!

The meaning of life is a life with meaning.

- Xueperman